I wish I've would have thought of you sooner
Everything is such a bummer
Since you left me in the last hot summer
I sat there waiting
Wondering if your okay
Getting word, that you dead
Makes me stay in bed everyday
Unless your here with me instead
Something aching in my head
Trying to figure out what it is
After searching and searching
I know what to do
And this is very new
I must kill the living
And become the unliving
Feeling a bone chilling present
I know her here
And I want you 'My, Dear'
Loving the screams of helpless people
That I don't know
Letting them feel my pain
I never kill so plain
The flithy blood drips qui
Standing in front of a mirror in the bathroom
Hearing my blood drip in the sink
Watching my wrist
In slow blinks
Thinking how poorly, at what I've done
When I could of had more fun
Sliding dow the wall slowly
I ask questions to myself
Why did I do this?
Was it because of you?
Do you love me?
I want to restart my life
And make it new
Knowing I only have a few seconds left
I wished I've could have loved you less
Writing letters in my blood upon the wall
Saying 'I love you till death'
Maybe you will care less
Eyes grow heavy
And my death is such a pity
Holding you tight everyday
Wishing you could take my pain away
When you passed away
My heart was at bay
Your skin cold and gray
I hope God will pay
His body hard and stiff
The flesh decaying and peeling from my grasp
I never wanted you to pass
Combing your hair with my fingers
Watching strand by strand fall on the floor
Only makes me want you more
Crying
Hiding
Lieing
Dieing
Those are my wishes
God, if you ever loved me
Kill me.....
I wrap myself into your arms
Falling in a endless sleep
Dreaming of a day will be together
FOREVER......
Theres more than meets the eye by DeadHeart, literature
Literature
Theres more than meets the eye
Everything is such a blur
What is she going to do?
I'm scared, not for myself but for her
She laughs
She smiles
She winks
She's happy
Is it true?
There's more than meets the eye
When time went by, she died...
Inside....
Now she cries
She bleeds
She's sad
She hurts
While I lurk
She's not the same but act as if she is.
I can't doing nothing, but watch
Only she can stop herself
But I'll melt into her skin
And let her know she not alone
Look at what you did to me
The black eyes, cuts and pain you brought
How dare you put your hands on me?!
Now that I'm hunting you, its fun to watch you flee
My heart turn black as the night
Grinning from ear to ear, as I walk after you
Do you think it was funny?
Did you have fun fucking me?
Well, I didn't
Now, I'll make sure you pay
Sneaking up behind you from the shadows
Watching you tremble with fear
Pulling out my gun and bringing back the trigger
You beg for your life, wrapping yourself around my legs
Shaking you off, and with that last that last jerk...
Dropping the gun seeing you stare at me, and never blinking
Standing
I love you till the day I die by DeadHeart, literature
Literature
I love you till the day I die
I've knew for a long time
But I will never draw the line
Protecting you from people that hurt you
I've been there for you, when you need a shoulder to cry on.
I will love you till the day I die
Changing our way, never loseing touch
But I feel as if I lost you
Not hearing laugh, but seeing you sad
Hurts me more than you know
I've bled for you, and cut my flesh to the bone
Now that we lost him, you've mourn everyday and will never stop.
But enough is enough
I know I sound harsh, but I'm done
I'm sick of seeing you cry and watching you die inside.
Wishing to see the old you, but that's a myth
You probably hate me now, but I couldn
Getting a phone call from home
Hearing that your gone
Feeling the tears in my eyes
Haveing a feeling you'll never come home
A few days gone by
Sitting by the window like a doll on display
Watching the streets for you
Nevering moving nor eating or sleeping
but hearing the voices telling me lies
Where are you? Come to me.
I feel empty, like a piece of me was torn away
Yes, you were torn away from my heart
Friends and families look for you
But I sit at the window looking for you to show
I've grown weak fading from everyone
We've should have been happy
But your lost and I'm gone...
I love you, and I'll sing a song
So you can fin
Missing you doesn't help me.. by DeadHeart, literature
Literature
Missing you doesn't help me..
Looking into your dark blue eyes
Sends me to places like no other
My soul burn like fire when we touch
Everything is starting off to a good lauch
Days go by and
I've been by your side
Never leaveing you alone
You've never hurt me and I've never hurt you
Until till now...
Touching your hand you seem to be fading
Holding you feeling you depart from me
I mourn over you since the day I lost you
Knowing we'll be together again ease's me
Watching people love one another, helps
But without you never lets me keep peace
Why didn't you take me?
But I've learned now...
I must go on
Not to cry, not feel pain
But to live, cause I know
Laying on the bed
Sheets filled with my blood
Hearing your foots steps coming Closer.....
My heart beats faster and my
Eyes grow wider.
You climb into the bed with me
Wrapping your arms around me you Whisper...
"Scream for me"
Shakeing my head, you grin
Yet something is in your hands
A razor, feeling you slice my weaken Flesh....
I scream and you laughed....
Why?
Why do you do this?
Do you love me?
No, how could you love
Makeing feel pain and hear laugh Isn't love...
It's hate...
Sitting in the tub with the water Running
Hold on to the dead rose which was Alive once, like me...
Closeing my eyes dreaming we could Have
Been
When I cry blood comes out.Why? Cause I'm alone in this world.I bleed to show how lonely I am.But its not like you care.Let me shed my blood and be alone.To be in peace I will never rest until happiness comes my way.But for now I will bleed.
Heartbreak?What is that?I'll tell you.Heartbreak is deadly.It makes you feel like your the smallest person in the world.That's why you should fight back, but not me I would rather be the smallest person so no one knew that I was alive.This heartbreak has torn me up inside to where I bleed and forget who I am.I'll shall raise again when the time is right.So I hope you bleed to death for what you have done.
There's nothing to do in life only to sit around.
This is called boredom, sometimes I wish
that I would die but that does not help.I play with knives and cut myself when I play around, my blood falls slowly to the ground and I grow bored every second.I fall to the ground and I don't get back up I wish to sleep there and dream and to never wake up.
What is a outcaste?I know it is
where you don't fit in because your different,
well I'm a outcaste and I kill the ones that threw
me out, I watch them suffer as they lay there on the ground.
Their blood is on my hands but I do not care,
I would rather bathe in their blood than to
see their faces so as I look at you down below.
I laugh and watch your blood run down your body and the ground and say "Who is the outcaste now."
Then I go out to kill more.
I'm alone no one loves me or cares for me.
I scream and hit the walls with my fist,
I pull my nails down on the glass.
They make a eerie screech that fills unbearable pain in your ears,
you pull your hands over them.
But it was no use,
you feel that pain and sorrow in my soul.
You fall to your knees and ask forgiveness.
I bend down to kiss you,
you go pale,
your last breath escapes from your lips.
From my kiss.......
My kiss is poisonous to you,
your soul rises from your body,
I come to meet you again.
We walk this earth,
we haunt the ones who didn't love us.
I cry each night and scream,
"I want to go home!" But,
Where'
Best Friends lost forever... by DeadHeart, literature
Literature
Best Friends lost forever...
My friends drift away,
and become strangers.
The pain is really hard to
deal with.
Was it me? Did I do something wrong?
I wish this day never happened
to me.
I should have kill myself like I
planned. But I would brought more
sadness to my other friends.
Everyday I keep wishing we were
friends still.
But I don't want to waste
my life on your face.
You have no heart, only a
shadow that looms over your soul.
You tricked me into being your friend,
you used me only for pleasure.
The months pass slowly by.
Yet your face haunts me, and hurts me.
I have nothing left to give you,
only the hate the aches inside me.
With i
I run through the forest,
for safety.
My heart beats wildly fast,
for each breath I take.
A dark figure follows fast.
As I look back it was not far.
The cuts and bruies,
showed in the grayless moonlight.
Wishing and hopeing,
has brought more fear in
my soul.
Darkness covers the earth,
within that short of time.
I run into a cave.
Shaking with fear,
I curl into a ball in the corner.
Grayish cold steely eyes stared me down.
I was trapped.
I yelp,
but nothin but air flew out.
A cold melted blade,
pushed smoothly through my
stomache.
As red as a rose, was my blood.
I closed my eyes,
and listen to the stillness o
Please, don't change me..... by DeadHeart, literature
Literature
Please, don't change me.....
Sitting in a dark shadow corner
wondering where you'll be
feeling the blood trickle down my face
trying to escape...
But wherever I go you find me...
I used to be bold and never scared of anything
but you've changed me...
Walking out into the world feeling naked
hiding my face, legs, and arms
Screaming for help was yet a waste...
You throwing me around like a rag doll
waiting to be torn apart
You would say your sorry
but I never believe you
cause you've change me....
Fearless, strong, bold, helping
What are those words?
Scared, small, pain, and screaming
I know those words...
I feel as I was drowning never to get a breath
Laying on the bed
Sheets filled with my blood
Hearing your foots steps coming Closer.....
My heart beats faster and my
Eyes grow wider.
You climb into the bed with me
Wrapping your arms around me you Whisper...
"Scream for me"
Shakeing my head, you grin
Yet something is in your hands
A razor, feeling you slice my weaken Flesh....
I scream and you laughed....
Why?
Why do you do this?
Do you love me?
No, how could you love
Makeing feel pain and hear laugh Isn't love...
It's hate...
Sitting in the tub with the water Running
Hold on to the dead rose which was Alive once, like me...
Closeing my eyes dreaming we could Have
Been
Missing you doesn't help me.. by DeadHeart, literature
Literature
Missing you doesn't help me..
Looking into your dark blue eyes
Sends me to places like no other
My soul burn like fire when we touch
Everything is starting off to a good lauch
Days go by and
I've been by your side
Never leaveing you alone
You've never hurt me and I've never hurt you
Until till now...
Touching your hand you seem to be fading
Holding you feeling you depart from me
I mourn over you since the day I lost you
Knowing we'll be together again ease's me
Watching people love one another, helps
But without you never lets me keep peace
Why didn't you take me?
But I've learned now...
I must go on
Not to cry, not feel pain
But to live, cause I know
Holding you tight everyday
Wishing you could take my pain away
When you passed away
My heart was at bay
Your skin cold and gray
I hope God will pay
His body hard and stiff
The flesh decaying and peeling from my grasp
I never wanted you to pass
Combing your hair with my fingers
Watching strand by strand fall on the floor
Only makes me want you more
Crying
Hiding
Lieing
Dieing
Those are my wishes
God, if you ever loved me
Kill me.....
I wrap myself into your arms
Falling in a endless sleep
Dreaming of a day will be together
FOREVER......
Wow.It's been like 2 years since I last got on this website. A lot of things have change for me. I don't really write my gay poems anymore. I'm not gothic or punk or whatever you call it anymore. I'm just me. I've gained friends and lost friends. I'm about to graduate and about to get married. Yea.....alot of things have changed........